Bloganuary – Day 5

What is something you wish you knew how to do?

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I wish I knew how to step back in time. Don’t you?

Not that I’d like to go back and change anything I did that I perceive as a mistake. You know, like not buying that block of land that’s now worth $1M or more. Retirement would be a lot close than it actually is, but hindsight is always 20/20 and, whether we like to admit it or not, we all make mistakes. It’s what makes us human.

Nor would I go back in time and alter any decision I’ve made in my life. Every choice, every crossed road or bridge, absolutely every decision we’ve ever made brings us to this exact spot we are in right now, and all it would take is one minor alteration in our journey through life and we would not be the person we are today.

I’m a firm believer in the Butterfly Effect and I would not like to change who I am and have a different life, end up married to a different person and be the mother of different children.

I love my life, my husband and my girls. Besides, thanks to Lewis Carroll I know:

I can’t go back to yesterday because, I was a different person then. 

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But wouldn’t it be wonderful to step back in time and have that conversation with a loved one who left this world all too soon?

My mother passed away suddenly at 54 years of age. I was 33 at the time and now I’m older than my mother was when she died.

There have been so many things I’ve done, triumphs and tragedies, that I wish I’d had the opportunity to share with her.

I wish she got to meet the person I’ve become and see her granddaughters grow into beautiful young women. I wish she knew how happy I am and how much my husband loves me.

I wish I told her I loved her more often than I did.

The last photo taken of my mother.

I guess the lesson here is to live every day to the fullest and always tell the people you love that you do (in fact) love them.

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Author: Clare

Ever-expanding one star at a time, my cosmos is a galaxy of thoughts and creativity where you can find poetry, short stories, photography and so much more.

7 thoughts

  1. My dad and I talk about going back in time just about every time have lunch together. He’d make different decisions, or not. Me? I’d rather just relive some days, without the stress of wondering what was going to happen as a result of that day. Really BE there. I’m glad I found your blog!

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